I think I know the cause of my problems now... I've trained myself so hard in saying "no" to things that I don't like or things that I think are not right. But I have never really trained myself in going for something in full force because I was so used to people telling me what to do. This has been the case for so long that when I am faced with a problem that nobody can help me with, I am at a loss with what to do.
I know everything I don't like by now. But I don't really know what I want.
